Sorry sorry (Sunday, June 9, 2013 / 5:22 PM)
Hi everyone. Sorry I've been absent lately. There isn't a real reason. I just haven't felt up to it I suppose. I'm on here today because I've been stuck in a place between wanting to recover and wanting to stay the way I am. I don't believe I am true that far along to be considered for recovery. I'm not even that thin. I don't look anything out of the ordinary. I've been having such strong urges to binge lately that I'm about to go insane. I also think I'm developing more into manic depression, rather than regular depression. Ugh. I don't know what to do with myself.
I'm battling with feelings of loneliness a lot these days. I'm always left behind by my friends and family. I'm also feeling like every time I do something, someone always has to one up me. It's just really difficult for me.
Oh, I've added a follow link. It's to the left, in my about box.
Fuck (Wednesday, December 5, 2012 / 12:41 PM)
I literally have no self control. Food is the enemy and it wins everyday.
Sorry. I can't talk about this anymore.
Yours,
Lindsay
(Monday, December 3, 2012 / 6:35 PM)
So, about today. I was doing fine until after work when I got slammed with all of the shit that has happened to the this past weekend and today. I don't even want to talk about it. All I have to say is that I am a failure, I am a fool, an I hate myself more than I did yesterday. Like that's even a possibility.
Hopefully I'll stop being useless soon.
Yours,
Lindsay
Follow (Sunday, December 2, 2012 / 1:34 PM)
I just realized that this template doesn't have a "Follow" button, so I'll have to get one up as soon as I can.
Sorry about that.
Yours,
Lindsay
New Beginnings ( / 11:21 AM)
So, I'm starting this documentation thing again because I need something in my life to hold me accountable again. I've fluxuated in my tendencies, going from "I don't give a shit, I'll eat what I want" to "Oh God, why did I just eat that..." But anyways, on to the food documentation:
Breakfast:
2 pieces of toast - 180
Lunch:
Diet Pepst - 0
Some chips & sour cream - no idea
See what I mean? No accountability. Hopefully I'll get back on track soon. I feel the need to lose the weight before our season opener. And I plan to make it my goal to get doen to at lease 100 by then. Wish me luck.
Yours,
Lindsay
